the Royal Hotness is back!

I'm back! I'm currently dusting off my blog's cobwebs. But I'm having a hard time rearranging my blog coz I already forgot to make HTML codes. My new but nasty playlist is annoying me. It's been more than a year since I last posted my life's drama. Well, since my last post, I started living my life in the fast lane--- work, work, parties, work, travel and all that jazz.

After my last post, I got in a relationship that is not really healthy at all. Maybe because I kinda followed my relatives' expectations. You know, the usual you have a stable job now so the next thing for you to do is get in a relationship and live happily ever after. But that didn't turn out to be happy after all. Though I learned from that very unhealthy relationship. I learned not to follow what's expected of you but to follow yourself. Noone knows you better but yourself. Next, never let a guy change everything about you (especially your sense of style) if he's not the one paying your bills and he doesn't have a really good sense of responsibility. It's ok to share the bills but it's time to go if he reprimands you if you had your hair cut off to a certain length and you had your nails done. I was so happy when that relationship ended.

Off to my fast lane life. I considered the idea of transferring to another company but there was an opening at a different account so I chose to stay and just transfer to another account within Convergys. I won't have to work at night and during holidays. I have more time to myself and my family. I usually spend my days off at the spa, at the salon, at social functions with friends and at the mall with my mom. In other words, I was back to being the social butterfly.

Though I go to parties and hang out with my new friends, I still miss my really close friends. I miss BFF Dano who is now a correspondent for GMA, Mae Ann who is happily married in Italy, Cams and Tom who are at the Ateneo Law school, Dad Marky and Marc who are in charge of GMA Interactive, Kuya Josh who is currently MIA and of course my Laguna Beach girl, Angeli who just started her second job at a sports store.

Then he came. Or was it I? Doesn't matter. As he said, it just happened. I know I'm a party girl but I only go to parties and schedule my after work endeavors every last day of the work week. I don't wanna go to work the next day with a nasty case of hang over. Then, one workday, a friend invited me to hang out with him and to meet his friends. He had done that for like two days and I always said no. But that night after work, my mind told me I have work the next day so I can't go but I had this strange and strong feeling that I should go. So I went there. I took a cab from Ayala to Baywalk only to have dinner and a few drinks with them. But I literally stayed there the whole night. Then I met this guy and the whole emotional madness started. Oh my gosh, I suddenly had a writer's block. I could not put into words how I met him, how he looked like when I met him, how we talked..... Let's just say we became friends easily. It was just like when I usually meet people and I make a mental note to behave in such a way I would not reveal myself because I don't easily trust people. Guys in particular. But for no apparent reason, I just let my guards down on this guy without me knowing it until it's too late. Since then, there has been a civil war in myself. My mind kept reminding me of rules I have set for myself to guard me from all the inevitable heartaches. FYI: I mastered the art of guarding my heart in the past 6 years sinve my last traumatic break up. But I had and still have this strong feeling of being with him. Everything is just so different. From the way I met him, to the first kiss, to the time we spent together and til the last day I heard from him. I couldn't even analyze it. Now, I just realize I'm just typing words out of my head and I think I going nowhere with this post. I'll just end this up now and just continue when I finally have the strength to put everything into words. Everything is just so uncertain but all I know is he will be back and there is nothing for me to do but wait for him.