My thesis is starting to get the best of me. Which, I think, is good coz I really wanna get over this whole "thesis mode" as soon as possible and start movin' on to better things in life like gettin' a vacation before the big full-time work starts.

Anyway, my life has been boring lately... Actually, according to my girl friends, I've had a "boring life" since I left Baguio and moved back to my mom's place. Need I elaborate more on what "boring life" means to them? No way! I prefer to keep it wholesome. After all, keeping my life "boring" means I'm on the right track in life. Yah, it's true. No drunk moments, no dirty parties, no obnoxious boys, and no lies to tell mommy.

I just realized how did I ever do all those party stuff in Baguio? I mean, fresh out from high school, I was not supposed to be that "wild" coz in the first place ("and the 2nd place goes to China", said Dad Marky) I don't know all those wild things. Well not really wild as in I became a slut or anything similar to that but how did an innocent (yes, I WAS innocent before) girl like me went through all the club hopping and booze marathons? How did I fabricate all those lines that I'm in my apartment with my housemates when mommy used to call me on my cellphone while the club music was blastin'? I'm really sure mom knows all my little secrets in Baguio but I guess she never confronted me coz I didn't make any major mistake in my life. She actually told me that a girl's life won't be complete until she goes through her "kalokohan phase" where all she does is have fun and don't care about anything at all. Then after a time she realizes life is not all that and she starts to fix her life til she finds happiness. I guess I'm done with my "kalokohan phase". I'm settling down now. Settling down, meaning my days of partying are over. Well, I still go to clubs sometimes but for legitimate reasons like if there's an event I have to attend for my work or a friend's birthday party.

Wow, I can't believe I passed that stage in my life without makin' any major screw ups. Anyway, I can't help but post what happened to me yesterday. I was walkin' to our college while thinking about my ethics report. I crossed the street still deep in my thoughts then a gray Pajero suddenly stopped inches away from me. I didn't notice it coz I was so in my thoughts that I didn't even hear it come and the driver didn't even do anything. He just patiently waited for me to pass like a turtle passing the road. Then when I was already on the sidewalk, the driver rolled down the window of the passenger side and a really, really, really, super good lookin' guy called out to me and said, "Miss! Ang perky-perky mo naman maglakad" with all his smile. Haha! That was really cute. That's what I call one of God's little surprises. I wish I memorized his plate number. I wish for more of God's little treats for me.

Macroeconomics. That very word scares me. Until now I still don't understand why journalism majors have to take macroeconomics(econ 100.1) in order to graduate. Maybe I'm just being too close-minded. I don't wanna see the advantages of learning macroeconomics. Coz I really don't wanna see the advantages of it! As long as I can count my salary, know the differences of CD's, 401k, bonds, stocks, know how to compute percentage and a really perfect marketing person, who needs macroeconomics? Then again, reality bites. I have to take econ 100.1 to graduate and it's a shame to tell everyone I still have another subject aside from my thesis. So I have to stretch my talents in analyzing problems, formulas and equations in order to pass. Econ's really not in my system. I don't know why almost everyone in the family loves economics (they apply it in their lives) but I don't. Anyway, I'm just unloading my economics long exam frustrations.

I'm still a pen jinx. I blotted my favorite yellow top with the latest pen I bought. Now I have to wash it off before mom sees it. She really freaks out when she sees stains. Oh well, at least I finished two exams this week--ethics and macroeconomics. I now have the freedom to work on my ethics report and my thesis. I guess I'll start drifting off to the world of "I only care about myself and my thesis" in the coming months.

Today I turned 22. I may be an oldie but I'm still a goodie. Haha! Anyway, as of this post, I can say this is my most memorable birthday coz it did not rain. But, I still have atleast 4 hours before I can truly say this is my most favorite birthday if it won't rain.

Anyway, there's nothing special with turning 22. But still I thanked God for another year of blessings and miseries as well that will make me stronger. I really started the day right. I woke up an hour earlier to jog, I practiced the routine for streetdance class and I had a full breakfast. But as always, I was late for my class which made the professor say, "I'd really appreciate it if you come to class on time". What can I do? I live in Antipolo, a suburb God only knows how many kilometers away from Quezon city. I was not really late for class coz coming to class on time was one of my priorities now. But I ran to my thesis adviser this morning and we talked about my thesis. I was so scared coz I haven't had my first draft yet. I asked him if I could continue my thesis til next sem and he kept on asking for reasons why I can't finish it this semester. I really can't finish my thesis this semester coz I want to put all my time on it. That would be impossible for this semester coz I still have other classes. My thesis adviser was really considerate and said there's no problem with that. I never thought my thesis adviser is that considerate. He's been my professor before and he is as scary as he can be. God bless him. I mean this.

I learned SPSS today in Comm Research class today. I swear, I love the program and it will really be helpful for my thesis coz it can make my job a lot easier. Well, I've been learning quite a lot of new things this week. Yesterday, I learned how to play pusoy dos. Today I learned how to play tong its. Wow, I'm becoming a hustler. Actually, I'm learning card games for no reason at all. Dad Marky enrolled me in ISH (International School of Hustling) where I learn all sorts of hustling. Hahaha!

We had our first seniors' assembly today. Everything is still complicated but I believe we'll get there. We have to rush the marketing letters and distribute them before October. Then, there are the grad pics and all.

I didn't go to work today nor did I teach today coz it's my birthday! I have every right to do whatever I wanna do. But of course, I must not eat chocolates and cake today coz birthdays are not excuses for trimming down.

Pen jinx I am! I just busted a pen worth 40pesos. I bought a Zebre DX-5 sign pen. I used it for only half a day and now it doesn't work anymore. I tried everything to make it work. I even heated the tip but I only melted it. What's happenin' to me?! Now I have to buy a new pen again. Or maybe I should just stick to pencils? But I have exams comin' and my professors insist we use pens in our exams. I also can't use pencils at work coz it looks so grade school. Ok, last try, I'll buy a Parker pen and if it still doesn't work, I'll stick to a Panda pen.

I should study for my journalism ethics exam on Friday today, a holiday. But the weather's cold and it's raining outside which made me stay under the covers, curl on the couch infront of the TV, sit infront of the computer and surf the internet for more diamonds and cars. Rainy days really affect my productivity. How come rainy days decrease my level of productivity when they should keep me active coz I'm used to them? It was raining on the day I was born and all 21 years of my life, I celebrate a rainy birthday. The rain is supposed to be like my twin! But no! The rain makes me a lazy chic. Maybe it's my evil twin.

Rainy days also make me think of him! I don't have anything to do so I can't keep him outta my head. I wonder, does he think of me during lazy rainy days? Oh my, what am I thinkin'?! Of course he doesn't think of me. We're not even really good friends. We just know each other-- plain and simple. So why would he think of me?! For all I know, he's also under the covers or curled on a couch infront of the TV but with his girl. Or probably at work. Or enjoying himself at the other end of the world. I'd like to believe he's in the other part of the world doin' something he loves to do than be with a girl. Heck, I don't really know him! I don't even know if he has a girl. I'm totally clueless. I don't even want to ask his friends about him coz they might think I have a thing for him which is so true. I must drop this and stick to my belief that I'm one of God's creations who is created whole-- who doesn't have a half to find in this big world. In short, I don't have a soulmate. Besides, my purpose in life is not to be someone else's girl but be my family's dime. It runs in the family. I noticed that in all three generations of our family, there's always one left unmarried and that one oversees the welfare of the family. That one is always on call 24/7 for the needs of the family. In our generation, I am that one. So I'd better stop paying attention to this guy who doesn't even pay an ounce of attention to me!

I wanna shop this month with my best buddies. I wanna shop for bronzers, lip glosses and tops. I just wanna shop for no apparent reasons. I wanna get new undies, new camisoles, new mini skirts, new everything! Oh! I should not forget to get a new bikini for emergency pool parties. I wanna spend a day in the spa. Anything to keep him outta my head!

I'm lovin't PCD's new single "I don't need a man". It's so me right now. That's what I love about PCD, each single reflects my life. It's like I'm the one of the members of PCD. Hey, I'm just kiddin'. I'm hot but not as steaming hot as them. Hmmm..... what are the PCD songs that reflected my life? "Beep" was one and what else? "You don't see me"-- during my stint with this guy and "Stick wit u" which is still one of my favorites though it doesn't really reflect my life.

Is there such a person called pen jinx? If there is, I may be considered as one. I've been buying pens for the last two weeks, I swear the people at National Bookstore Katipunan know me already. I keep losing my pens and if I don't lose them, they die on me. Meaning they don't work after I use them for a couple of days. Bummer! If I estimate it right, I just spent at least 200 bucks on pens. That's equivalent to 4 meals at Cello's Doughnuts or a pedicure at a local salon. I don't intend to waste my money on pens. I'd rather waste it on doughnuts or popcorn or chocolates.

Here I go again with my sweet tooth. I noticed how often I substitute doughnuts, cakes and chocolates for my regular meals. When mom calls or texts me she won't be home for dinner and I have to cook my own dinner, I just bring home doughnuts or chocolate bars or both to pig-out infront of the TV or computer. If I don't have time for lunch, I just grab a brownie or a cake at the canteen or a chocolate bar at the nearest convenience store. There are also my random hang-outs at Starbucks. Oh my, I gotta fix my eating habits. I need to go back to my regular 3 times a day eating habit. Regular meals like rice, vegetables and fruits. I'm also planning to undergo water therapy coz I've been takin' in coffee, Coke light and other artificial beverages for the past month.

Starting tomorrow, I'll fix my eating habit. I'll eat a full breakfast instead of coffee and cake. The cake must go but not the coffee-- I need to wake up. Then I'll eat a full lunch and I'll eat on time. I'll skip Coke light for lunch and just have water. As much as possible, no afternoon snacks. But if I can't resist my hunger, I'll have pasta or tuna sandwich-- no doughnuts or chocolates for the mean time. But I'll have Coke light with my snacks coz I can't stand a day without a glass of Coke light. Besides, it's light, right? I'll try to really take a break from work to have my dinner on time. If I can't, I'll really try to have dinner before I go to bed (no matter how tired I am to wash my own dishes) instead of munching Malteasers or M&Ms for dinner. Lots of fruits from now on (I'm starting to be like my mom) and I'll stick to my 8 glasses of water a day endeavor.

Oh! I also need to watch my flabs. I have to start jogging regularly again which means I have to wake up an hour earlier than usual. Maybe I also have to practice the routine I'm learning in streetdance class everyday, as in religiously everyday to shed off my flabs. I gotta stay tight for the coming graduation pictorials, for more impromptu swimming parties and for cocktail parties which require short, skimpy but not slutty dresses.

According to Angeli, my kikay girl buddy, MTV PIlipinas has just started airing Laguna Beach season 3. Yes! Finally! It started last August 16. I was so happy when she told me Tessa is this season's narrator. I thought it was Kyndra. Tessa is the prettiest among the season 3 girls. Even prettier than LC and Kristin. I feel bad for Breanna, LC's younger sister. She was not supposed to be part of season 3 but since LC's her sister, she got the part. Anyway, I think she'll be the Casey of season 3. Casey's the blond girl in season 2 who Alex M. and her friends hate but pretend they don't.

What else? What are my other updates? Oh! Erratum: the Tokyo Drift car that I love which I thought is a Mazda? It's actually a Nissan. 2002 Nissan Ladybird to be exact. I like the black one, the one Neela drove. Nissan has actually made the cars available to the market. Anyone can actually buy the cars-- the exact models. Wow! I really want that car!

This is my baby!

Victoria's Secret has launched their new line of baby dolls. I wanna buy one online but I'm still paying my debts coz I used mom's credit card last summer. Darn! These are the moments I wish I am as rich as my mom. Here are my favorite picks.

Really sexy, right?

Very pink and very innocent.

I love pink, so I love this.

This will look good on me with my favorite jeans and heels.

Cassie released her new single "A Long Way to Go". I added it on my playlist. The video will be out probably in the next weeks. The filming just started a couple of weeks ago in L.A. I love Cassie, she's like Natalie. Natalie's working on her new album and she's blond now.

Jessica Simpson's "A Public Affair" is this year's summer song according to an article I read in the internet. It's doin' good in the U.S. and so does here in the Philippines. It's actually my and Dano's BFF song. Haha!

Mommy and I were talking about this book on Liz Taylor's diamonds over coffee this morning. Mommy said Liz Taylor is really famous coz of her diamonds. So famous that diamond manufacturing companies usually give her complimentary items. Man, I wish I could get diamonds for free also! According to mommy, Imelda Marcos used to copy Liz Taylor in the 70s. Whatever! Liz Taylor's diamonds are so rare not even Imelda Marcos could afford them.

I told mommy how much I want to have my very own diamond collection. Diamonds I really bought with the money I earned. She told me I could really have my own diamond collection. She said in case I don't know yet, Liz Taylor had humble beginnings and every dimaond she has now are from hardwork. So if Liz Taylor earned diamonds by working, I could also earn my diamonds that way. Now that's quite an inspiring story from my mom.

A girl can never have enough diamonds to choose from. If only I have access to mom's diamonds! I could only wear them during special events with her. Mom loves flaunting our special mother-daughter relationship which developed to its full potential when dad died. The best way she could think of flaunting our relationship is through her diamonds. During special events, like formal events, she'll let me wear a set but the diamonds I wear should match with hers. She wears the mother diamonds while I wear the daughter diamonds. Our favorites are the pendants made of Russian diamonds with polished rubies and the heart-shaped pendant (which mom calls her very own heart of the ocean) with earrings all studded with Russian diamonds. We prefer Russian diamonds coz they're shinier than the others. Mom wears the bigger pendant with an extra diamond making it look fancier while I wear the smaller pendant which is way simpler than hers. If we wear the heart-shaped pendant and earrings, it's either mom wears the pendant and I wear the earrings or vice-versa.

Wearing one of her diamonds during ordinary days is a mortal sin. Maybe coz I developed a reputation of losing some of them that's why mom doesn't trust me with her diamonds anymore. In my whole life, I already lost 2 diamond earrings (when I was 4 and when I was 15), a diamond necklace and a diamond bracelet. Fine! So I WAS careless then. But I've grown more mature now. But I know making mom trust me with the diamonds her and dad took care of for years is beyond my reach. I don't even know where mom keeps them. I wanna take pictures of them and post it here but mom said people might copy the designs of her diamonds. That's another thing-- mom solely believes the designs of her blings are rare and that there's a possibility she's the only one in earth who owns those blings. Haha!

Don't think my mom's a diamond freak. She's the most God-fearing person I know. Her values based on the Bible are intact and she literally, emotionally, spiritually implements them in her household. She just loves having blings. Besides, the only stuff she had now from my dad are the diamonds and of course, her hot and sexy daughter--ME!

It was supposed to be a Friday night out with friends, but everyone was not in the mood (except for BFF Dano and I) to go out. Josh was in the corporate room, "bonding" with the CEO and everyone in JC decided to go home right after the tambayan closed. As for me, I met my girls and studied with the for like 30 minutes then we watched the Disney channel. Haha! The Wirl (half woman-half girl) in me comes out whenever I'm with my girls. Then we played games in Yahooligans in the internet.

I waited for my friends' texts where should we meet for our night out but as I've noted a while ago, no one was in the mood for a night out except for me and Dano who was at the Ateneo for a film screening. Josh was busy coz of his stint with his boss. While waiting for their text messages, I was at National bookstore Katipunan choosing a pen coz the latest pen I bought died on me after two days of purchase. I stayed there for like an hour coz I was lookin' for a nice book to read over the long weekend. It'll be a non-working holiday on Monday coz it's Ninoy Aquino's death anniversary. I couldn't decide on what book I should buy coz I wanna buy them all! I got so indecisive today, I even had a hard time choosing what pen should I buy. So I ended up not buying any book which got me frustrated even more. But I think it's a blessing in disguise coz that way, when my uncles, aunts, cousins and my mom ask me what I want for my birthday, I'll give them the title of the books. Haha! I'm gonna ask mom to buy me the book "My Love Affair with Diamonds" by Elizabeth Taylor. Mom will really buy that coz her bestfriends are diamonds and she loves Liz Taylor. Something to add in our "mini" library at home.

So I went home and now was infront of the computer searching for stuff in the internet. I'm did my usual routine on a stay-at-home friday night. I checked the website of Tiffany and Co. for diamonds. I also checked amazon.com for pink diamonds coz Tiffany and Co.'s collection doesn't have pink diamonds yet. As the saying goes, "diamonds are forever, men are not" so I'll stick to diamonds. I can't wait to finish school, work my butt off so I could earn more dough and be one of the most loaded people alive. If I could only be as rich as my parents, I'd definitely buy diamonds for myself coz I have no right on my parents blings and properties coz they earned them by themselves. Inheritance is not considered. I also wanna own stuff by working my butt off just like what my parents did. Gettin' a baller to get the blings is not included in my battleplan of bein' rich, I'll do it on my own coz that's just it!

Anyway, here are some of the diamonds I wanna have. Bring out the icings, baby!



Among the pink diamonds I saw in the websites, this is my most favorite.


Check out this butterfly belly ring. I considered (for the Nth time) having my belly button pierced when I found this at shopping.com. I think it'll look sexy on my belly button.

Here are more eye candies for the girls.




These are from Tiffany and Co.


As you can see, they don't have pink diamonds yet. I think they're still sticking to their classic image they've been keeping for 105 years that's why they don't want to try colored diamonds. But they're using sapphires.

I love, love, love this one! I want this for my birthday!

But if I could not have this for my birthday, at least I have the photo. I could always have it made at a local jeweller.

Trying to keep someone outta your mind can be really tiring. Today was a really hectic day. The ACLE, the marketing tasks for graduation, work, everything! But everything turned out the way I was expecting. The ACLE was one of the successful ACLE's our org had so far. The marketing portfolios need only a few changes before they get printed. The nicest thing that happened so far was my girls got really high grades the past quarter so I got a treat from their moms. Haha! I guess I'm gonna be a really great mom coz from my girls, I can see I can make children study hard.

I think I'm gonna treat myself also. I'm gonna treat myself to a movie at the university film center on Wednesday. I'm gonna watch the Fast and the Furious:Tokyo Drift again so I could see my dream cars! I really fell in love with the cars in the movie. Especially the black one. I think it's a Mazda. I wanna have a car I could use for drifting. I don't care if people think I'm a lesbian, but I love cars! That's just it!

Another thing was added in my to-do-list. I have to make set cards. Good thing I have model friends who could give me pointers on how to make effective set cards. That's what a "talentless" girl like me should do. As the saying goes, if you can't act, sing or dance, be a model!

But I'm learning something. As I've posted here before, I'm in a streetdance class. Yes, I'm learning how to dance. It all started with the fact that I have to live my 5 months goin' to streetdance class for my last PE class but I'm starting to love the class now. I just realized, it's my only class that I have a perfect attendance for this semester. I'm just so scared of missin' a class coz I'll miss out a routine and it'll be embarassing if I show up in class dancing like Kermit the frog. So I have to go to class and learn the routine so I could practice it at home. I was really uncomfortable in streetdance class before but I'm at ease now. The only thing that's bothering me is we (the whole class) will dance at a program of some sort. I really have a worst case of stage fright. The mere thought of dancing in front of a crowd, scares me. I could do millions of PR plan presentations, marketing talks, write press releases but never perform in front of a crowd. It's just so scary!

I wish I have someone who could just be with me and say it's ok to perform infront of people. You know, just a hug to give me the assurance everything will be fine... Whatta?! What am I doing, dreaming of someone to have and to hold?! Na-ah! I've gotta stick with my self-promise of no guys from now on. I'm too old for that boyfriend-girlfriend whatevers. There are lots of more sensible things to do and to achieve.

I'm really missin' him-- BADLY! Not even a hot grande cafe mocha with a shot of mint and a chocolate walnut chocolate can cheer me up. A sit-in at Nike's scuba diving class with hot guys could not cheer me up either. Heaven's sake! Why am I feelin' this way?!!! I'm not like this. I'm usually in control. I always have the ball. If I don't wanna think of somebody, I really won't think of him. But this guy (without his awareness) has been in my mind for the past month. During the first weeks, I can still ignore him and go on with my life. But he's gettin' in my system now.

Whatever happens, I'll still do my best to get him off my mind. That way, I could be more productive than usual. Like this day, instead of bummin' around at the tambayan, Nike and I went to Balara High School to invite them for the ACLE tomorrow. After class, I did some marketing tasks for Journ Club and went with Nike to her scuba diving class. Then I did some org-related stuff with her and my other orgmates for the ACLE.

I went to Starbucks Katipunan and met Dano who was studying for an exam on communication theories. I swear, Dano could be the next Marshall McLuhan! While he was drifting in the world of critical theories and cultural theories that affect the flow of communication, I was drifting again in my subconscious which this guy has been dominating for the past few weeks. What must I do to get him outta my head?! I wish I am drifting, literally drifting a Lamborgini on the streets of Monte Carlo.

Anyway, enough of him. I have lots of things to do tomorrow. Classes in the morning, ACLE in the afternoon, merienda with the mom of one of my girls (maybe her daughter got really high grades this quarter so she decided to treat me), a trip at the printing house to have the marketing portfolios printed for the graduation committee and a night out with my orgmates. I'm gonna be busy tomorrow I pray he won't pop out of my mind even for only a day and I'd be really thankful.

I wonder why people think of other people who doesn't even think of them? Oh, I also have other things to do. I have to finish my ethics report on Monday, work on my thesis, update my website which I kept on putting in my to-do-list for the past 6 months, start preparing for my yearbook pictorials and write the press releases due next week.

Convergys called today to inform me I'll start on October instead of this month coz I'm still attendin' classes. The current training schedule overlaps with my school schedule. So I have the responsibility to finish all my subjects this semester so I could start work by October. I would like to point out that after my 6-month contract with Convergys as an agent, they'll transfer me to their PR department coz of my PR stints before I landed a post at Convergys. It was my decision to take the inbound position job offer first coz I believe I couldn't be an effective corporate PR practitioner if I could not relate with the employees.

Everyone, I'm askin' for your prayers regarding my career endeavors. Thanks! Love y'all!

Haha! While killin' time at Starbucks and while Dano's still in the world of theories, one of the cute guys Dano and I saw during our last Starbucks hang-out arrived. Hot as usual! He's the one who has a longtime girlfriend. He kinda recognized us. I was not in the mood to flirt today so I didn't give a damn even if he's just at the table next to ours. Not even when I noticed he was checkin' out my legs coz I was wearin' a cotton mini skirt and even when Dano left me alone for this guy to approach me. Na-ah! No boys this day within 24 hours!

The ghosts of Christmas past hunted me tonight! After the first hot guy left, second hot guy arrived.The guy who was checkin' me out while he was with his girl. Tonight, he was with another girl. I really think he's a player. He's still checkin' me out. How come each time I "discipline" myself on guys, that's when they keep comin'? Stars are really blind. Haha!

Anyway, Dano and I were blabbing our angst with the current yearbook EIC (I need not mention his name), I don't wanna elaborate the issue but all members of the graduation committee hate the EIC.

I'm a bit down now coz I'm missin' someone, really bad! I don't know why but I'm having deja vus with this guy. For no apparent reason, I can't keep him outta my mind! This is not a good thing-- I don't want any guy buggin' me. I hate this feeling!

Anyway, I'm keeping my self busy with school, work and org matters. I started studying for our exam in economics next week coz I'm really not that good in deriving equations and solving income whatevers. As long as I get paid right and I spend my money right who needs the economic equations? I've been writing press releases and my girls are having their periodical exams this week so we need to study big time. Their usual statement, "Teach, I've gotta get really high grades so mom could buy me a Bratz doll". Then ACLE is on Thursday and as one of the hottest chics in the finance committee of JC, I have to be really pretty and get sponsors for the event this week. Oh, as the marketing committee head of our graduation committee, I also have to contact lots of companies and people to sell ad spaces for our yearbook. That was what I did for a living before so I'm lucky enough to have a reliable network. We're working on the marketing portfolio now.

I really want to be busy as much as I could coz I'm trying to avoid being attached to this guy or to any guy at all. But still I miss this guy! I'm really going crazy. These past few weeks, I usually spend my free time convincing myself he's not special at all.

At the tambayan today, the JC girls were all laughing coz we were talking about our weird dreams. Haha! The wet dreams and such. Then the conversation drifted to psychological whatevers coz I told them I started writing when I was 3 but I was left handed. When I started school, mommy asked my teacher to teach me how to use my right hand. From then on I use my right hand when I write only and I use my left hand in all other things. I read that if you made a child write using his/her right hand when he/she started using his/her left hand, the child will have psychological problems. It would be hard to find out which part of the brain is dominant. No wonder I grew up a talentless kid. Well, not really talentless, I could write 5 press releases in an hour. Isn't that a talent? I also learned to use my butt if both hands are busy. Nike made us imagine some situations and from there, we could analyze our personalities. I found out that I fall inlove easily but I take precautions like I don't easily barge in the guy's life. Then I can't handle long distance relationships and I want to be the first to end up the relationship but I want the break up to be clean, no bitter feelings. Lastly, I found out that I fall inlove easily but I don't get over the separation that easy. That is so true!

Business partner Dano and I decided to go to Starbucks Katipunan on a whim after our swimming endeavor. While our orgmates were already safe and sound in their homes and dorms, my business BFF was having his double espresso and I was having my cafe mocha in mint. We were talking about boys over coffee and Cello's doughnuts. Aside from talking about boys, we were also busy making eye contacts with the cute boys there.

It all started when this cute guy kept on giving me significant glances whenever he passed by. I was in my shortest (according to my mom's standards) skirt and a top which showed my tan. I let my hair down so my sexy curls played over my shoulders when I move. So I was bringing back his glances coz it's not a sin to flirt around if you don't have an official man, right? The guy was with his girlfriend but he checks me out. Maybe he thought I'm hotter than his girl. Dano and I were laughing whenever he passed by coz the guy was really lookin' at me. On his third look, I decided to ask him why he's lookin' at me. But I was sippin' coffee when he passed so I failed to ask him. Also, he has his girl with him so he kinda showed me he's a player-- the kind of boys mom warns me about.

Then there's this another cute guy doin' his homework. He went out for a smoke. Dano noticed him first. We were watching him while we think of things we wanna do with him coz he is really cute. When he finished, he went inside passing by our table so I gave him my geisha look. He looked back but that's just it. He never looked again. Dano and I found out from Maya that he has a girlfriend, a long time girlfriend. That's why that one look had no follw-ups. Now that's a guy any girl would keep.

We went home around 10pm. As we went out, Dano caught a glimpse of the guy with the girlfriend looking at me. Sorry, I'm for his eyes only.

Last Monday night, I had mom's house to myself. She went to a church event and slept over at Tita Ghing's (baby Michae's mom) place. Since I don't have the right to turn her house into a party house and I could not leave the house for a late night hang out at a friend's pad coz I was not in the mood for that, I finished reading the biography of Dean Armando Malay. After reading the only written biography (so far) of Dean Malay, I ended up writing quite a handful ideas I hope I could use for my thesis.

Then I took a hot bath and was already in my most comfortable pj's but I still don't feel like goin' to bed. I couldn't think of anything else to do so I put on some hiphop songs and practiced the routine I learned in streetdance class that day. It's actually a PE class not an after school endeavor coz I don't really dance. I only have to finish one more PE class. So I danced and practiced the routine until I got so tired. I had to change pj's coz I don't wanna sleep on my own sweat. Ewww! I had a really nice sleep so nice I finally got my usual 6-hour sleep again after two months!

But when I woke up, every muscle of my body hurt. My right butt cheek and right thigh hurt the most. Just when I thought I found a way to bring my normal sleeping habit back. My right butt cheek and right thigh still hurt now but only a little. A couple of days ago, I couldn't walk well coz they really hurt especially when the muscles contract that was why I don't want to move that much. I want a massage! But I don't have the time. Huhuhuhu.....

Maybe I kinda "abused" my body coz I went swimming with my orgmates last Sunday for our team building activity. We played talaba-talaba in the pool. It's really tag in the pool. But for those who can't swim or who gets tired of swimming easily, you may hold on to the sides of the pool for dear life thus making you look like a clam (talaba in Tagalog). Haha! So I swam til I dropped last Sunday and I ended up with sore muscles. But I had fun coz I was with my orgmates and we all looked forward to this team buiding activity.



The only thing that was missin' at the activity was the JC Cup coz we didn't have a ball. That's our official pool game. It's soccer, American football, rugby and whatever physical game you could think of in one. But I'm still thankful we didn't play it coz I might end up gettin' an appointment at the spa for a full body massage which I don't have the time for lately.



The best part there was I got a tan. Again, thank God for Hawaiian Tropic Dark Tanning lotion, the Body Shop vitamin E moisturizer with sunblock and the sun. Finally, I got the vacation I missed last summer even for only less than 24 hours. What's important was I got to wear my bikini and I bonded with my orgmates.



I therefore conclude that if you add less than 24 hours of hanging out with your orgmates in the pool and probably a couple of hours dancing hiphop before sleepin' will result to... a visit to the spa which is equivalent to two days worth of labor.

There, I have a temporary playlist. I still can't figure out that radioblog. It's so complicated! I have to download this and that program and the inner Luddite in me is freaking out! Anyway, at least I have the songs-- the ones that are on repeat in my music library.

Last night, I came home and found out my tito will file legal charges against his wife. I was not surprised coz their marriage has been on the rocks (and really on the rocks) for the past five years. Tito is a seaman so he travels a lot. He met his wife in Thailand. She was a Vietnamese who migrated to Thailand during the Vietnam war but she claims she's a Thai. As if! She doesn't have the exotic complexion of Thais coz she's as white as a ghost! We were all surprised when tito brought her home. She even stayed in our apartment in Makati when I was a kid and the moment I saw her, I felt something wrong. My late cat, Garfield, doesn't even like her. She used to put Garfield on her lap and Garfield acts like a witch was carrying him. Years past and she really is the wicked witch of the Orient. She was so evil to the point she hates our family. She doesn't like my mom and gratitude didn't even exist in her. Mom welcomed her in her home when they still don't have a place and she even bought a house for them! Now she hates my mom and creates stories about my mom that are so untrue! But mom's a tough momma so she doesn't devote even a minute in plotting vengeance against the witch. If she wants to, she can. She have all powers to stop tito from getting a contract. She'll just talk to the port captains in the company who are her and dad's long time friends and to the shareholders of the company who are my dad's relatives. But she doesn't want to coz aside from her God-fearing qualities, tito's her brother and she's known in our family as "the Guardian" of each and everyone.

To continue the story, tito and his wife adopted a kid coz the witch can't bear a child anymore. She had two husbands before and has two kids from different guys before she snagged my tito. The kid was her daughter's son. We absolutely love the kid like our real cousin. I love James coz he's such a good boy-- a complete opposite of his grandma witch. He would always ask me how my day was and he always brags about me, his only "smart and pretty 'ate'", in his class. Mom loves James like her youngest child but I don't hold it against her coz I'd love to pass my rank to James . Kuya love him too coz he was the little bro kuya never had, because I am a girl as-- straight as I can be.

James may look like a normal kid but the witch is physically abusing him. She hits James as if she's hitting a horse and James would go to our house and tell mom what happened. Mom would put betadine and band aids on the wounds caused by that witch. Mom wants to do something but she can't coz tito kept her from doing it. But now that tito was awakened and realized his wife was the wicked witch of the Orient, he consulted a lawyer. On top of all that, tito works his butt off on the ocean for months and he doesn't have a single penny coz his bankbook, his credit card and his ATM card are all in the possession of the witch.

If you wanna see a real life goldigger, see the witch. She has all my tito's money including the money mom kept for tito when he was still single. Mom transfered the ownership of the house to tito but tito gave him an SPA. The witch wants the title transfered in her name but she can't do that coz of what tito did. What does she want? She already has my tito's money. She even wants mom's lot in the province coz she talks mom into sellin' the lot to her. Duh! My mom's wise enough. On the last argument tito had with the witch, she said tito will not get anything from her if she goes back to Thailand not even James. That bitch!

So mom and tito decided to take the fight in a legal manner. They were calling mom's lawyer friends last night and they were plotting of something in case the witch gets James and brings him to Thailand. James doesn't even know how to speak Thai coz he grew up here and he hates Thailand. So mom keeps his passport, birth certificate and all the important documents tito sneaked out their house. Then they made James memorize all our cellphone numbers including all important landlines just in case something bad happens. They told him who are the persons he needs to call if the witch takes him somewhere.

I'm getting scared of what might happen. I went home last night and mom told me James was hit again (for the nth time) by the witch and tito got so angry. Then the witch kept saying that we were not James' relatives so he should not love us while hitting him. James ran in our house to mom and she saw the lashes. Mom couldn't help but cry coz of what the witch did to James. So last night they planned what they should do. Tito and mom are planning something I couldn't quite understand as of now coz I was so in to their directions on what I should do like take James somewhere where we would meet tito or mom. Everything's just so complicated for me. If it's already complicated on my level, what about James who is really involved with this whole mess. Honestly, I don't want James to go with that witch in case tito and the witch separate. He's like my little bro-- the little guy who looks up to me and believes I'm the best 'ate' in the whole wide world even if I'm not. I'll really do everything that I can to keep James from being taken to Thailand by that witch. The kid doesn't even like Thailand. If he goes to Thailand, I won't have my little bro anymore.

My mom always says there's no better way to get the dough but to have a monthly salary AND you're own business. Even my dad's twin sister tells me that. I gotta trust them coz my mom's probably the best entrepeneur I know (next to Donald Trump) and my tita's the best CPA I know. When it comes to the cheddar, they are the experts I can easily access.

So now I'm thinking of getting a 9-5pm job after college and save, save, save, save then invest on something. Then came my and Dano's frustrations on the limited collections of elite clothing companies here in our country. There are collections from Diesel, Dolce and Gabbana, Donna Karan New York and other names that do not reach our country coz they think their lines won't sell (ours being a third world country and all, as if!). Think of all those clothes, shoes and bags lots of people could not buy or have to purchase over the internet. A lot of people would have to ask favors from their relatives abroad to buy and send them items not for sale in our country. Example? Me! I have to be super nice and sweet to my relatives abroad for a bottle of Gap Dream, my scent for eight years and Victoria's Secret undies.

My sexy, hot, number 1 playboy BFF in the land-- Dano and I have decided to franchise......... DOLCE & GABBANA, baby! A lot of things are still in the works like where will we place our shop and all that glitz. How are we gonna publicize the brand, etc, etc. Aside from all that, the stuff we decided on is super top secret as of now coz we don't want other people stealing our plans. Domenico Dolce and Stefano Gabbana, I believe, will surely be ecstatic to make us our business associates.

My business partner, Dano Tingcungco.

We're practicing our business skills and charms at the moment for the marketing affairs of our graduation committee. Dano came up with a plan of getting make-up brands (names are still disclosed at the moment) as our sponsors and it's up to me to do the business talk since I have the marketing kits. I really wish and pray we'll have a really beautiful deal with the companies.

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