Pen jinx I am! I just busted a pen worth 40pesos. I bought a Zebre DX-5 sign pen. I used it for only half a day and now it doesn't work anymore. I tried everything to make it work. I even heated the tip but I only melted it. What's happenin' to me?! Now I have to buy a new pen again. Or maybe I should just stick to pencils? But I have exams comin' and my professors insist we use pens in our exams. I also can't use pencils at work coz it looks so grade school. Ok, last try, I'll buy a Parker pen and if it still doesn't work, I'll stick to a Panda pen.

I should study for my journalism ethics exam on Friday today, a holiday. But the weather's cold and it's raining outside which made me stay under the covers, curl on the couch infront of the TV, sit infront of the computer and surf the internet for more diamonds and cars. Rainy days really affect my productivity. How come rainy days decrease my level of productivity when they should keep me active coz I'm used to them? It was raining on the day I was born and all 21 years of my life, I celebrate a rainy birthday. The rain is supposed to be like my twin! But no! The rain makes me a lazy chic. Maybe it's my evil twin.

Rainy days also make me think of him! I don't have anything to do so I can't keep him outta my head. I wonder, does he think of me during lazy rainy days? Oh my, what am I thinkin'?! Of course he doesn't think of me. We're not even really good friends. We just know each other-- plain and simple. So why would he think of me?! For all I know, he's also under the covers or curled on a couch infront of the TV but with his girl. Or probably at work. Or enjoying himself at the other end of the world. I'd like to believe he's in the other part of the world doin' something he loves to do than be with a girl. Heck, I don't really know him! I don't even know if he has a girl. I'm totally clueless. I don't even want to ask his friends about him coz they might think I have a thing for him which is so true. I must drop this and stick to my belief that I'm one of God's creations who is created whole-- who doesn't have a half to find in this big world. In short, I don't have a soulmate. Besides, my purpose in life is not to be someone else's girl but be my family's dime. It runs in the family. I noticed that in all three generations of our family, there's always one left unmarried and that one oversees the welfare of the family. That one is always on call 24/7 for the needs of the family. In our generation, I am that one. So I'd better stop paying attention to this guy who doesn't even pay an ounce of attention to me!

I wanna shop this month with my best buddies. I wanna shop for bronzers, lip glosses and tops. I just wanna shop for no apparent reasons. I wanna get new undies, new camisoles, new mini skirts, new everything! Oh! I should not forget to get a new bikini for emergency pool parties. I wanna spend a day in the spa. Anything to keep him outta my head!

I'm lovin't PCD's new single "I don't need a man". It's so me right now. That's what I love about PCD, each single reflects my life. It's like I'm the one of the members of PCD. Hey, I'm just kiddin'. I'm hot but not as steaming hot as them. Hmmm..... what are the PCD songs that reflected my life? "Beep" was one and what else? "You don't see me"-- during my stint with this guy and "Stick wit u" which is still one of my favorites though it doesn't really reflect my life.