Trying to keep someone outta your mind can be really tiring. Today was a really hectic day. The ACLE, the marketing tasks for graduation, work, everything! But everything turned out the way I was expecting. The ACLE was one of the successful ACLE's our org had so far. The marketing portfolios need only a few changes before they get printed. The nicest thing that happened so far was my girls got really high grades the past quarter so I got a treat from their moms. Haha! I guess I'm gonna be a really great mom coz from my girls, I can see I can make children study hard.

I think I'm gonna treat myself also. I'm gonna treat myself to a movie at the university film center on Wednesday. I'm gonna watch the Fast and the Furious:Tokyo Drift again so I could see my dream cars! I really fell in love with the cars in the movie. Especially the black one. I think it's a Mazda. I wanna have a car I could use for drifting. I don't care if people think I'm a lesbian, but I love cars! That's just it!

Another thing was added in my to-do-list. I have to make set cards. Good thing I have model friends who could give me pointers on how to make effective set cards. That's what a "talentless" girl like me should do. As the saying goes, if you can't act, sing or dance, be a model!

But I'm learning something. As I've posted here before, I'm in a streetdance class. Yes, I'm learning how to dance. It all started with the fact that I have to live my 5 months goin' to streetdance class for my last PE class but I'm starting to love the class now. I just realized, it's my only class that I have a perfect attendance for this semester. I'm just so scared of missin' a class coz I'll miss out a routine and it'll be embarassing if I show up in class dancing like Kermit the frog. So I have to go to class and learn the routine so I could practice it at home. I was really uncomfortable in streetdance class before but I'm at ease now. The only thing that's bothering me is we (the whole class) will dance at a program of some sort. I really have a worst case of stage fright. The mere thought of dancing in front of a crowd, scares me. I could do millions of PR plan presentations, marketing talks, write press releases but never perform in front of a crowd. It's just so scary!

I wish I have someone who could just be with me and say it's ok to perform infront of people. You know, just a hug to give me the assurance everything will be fine... Whatta?! What am I doing, dreaming of someone to have and to hold?! Na-ah! I've gotta stick with my self-promise of no guys from now on. I'm too old for that boyfriend-girlfriend whatevers. There are lots of more sensible things to do and to achieve.